Took this photo around 1 pm. I had showered and dressed but hadn’t put on makeup yet. Today is a 3 out of 10. I’m stressed and frustrated by my financial situation, and my living situation is also frustrating me. I am very aware that my mouth and jaw are full of tension, and all I want to do is sleep. But I am trying to fake it as much as I can, because depression doesn’t pay the bills.
How this works:
With each photo I’m going to post a little bit about what’s going on, along with a number to rank my depression level on a decidedly unscientific scale of 1 to 10. A score of 1 means I am feeling extremely depressed, withdrawn and reclusive; 10 is feeling happy, positive and upbeat. Five is what I think of as “even keel”: not feeling depressed to the point that I take to the bed, but in touch with my depression and using tools such as positive self-talk, journaling and affirmations so that I can function normally.