Faces of Depression, Day 10

Today was rough. Woke up at 6 and cried from all the anxiety running through my head – my anxiety is at its worst in the morning – and fell asleep again after 7 and didn’t wake up again until after 9. Putzed around, journaled, ate breakfast, then felt emotionally drained and went back to bed for a few more hours. I did get outside for a little while around 2:45 – had a late lunch of comfort food (spaghetti and meatballs). But on the way back my check engine light came on and that triggered my anxiety all over again.

Day 10 selfie, 11:20 a.m. Rank of 1 out of 10.
Day 10 selfie, 11:20 a.m. Rank of 1 out of 10.
Day 10 selfie, 9:20 pm. I got up to a 3 mid-day, but by the evening I was back at a 1.

In short, today started at a 1, got up to a 3, then dipped back to a 1. A good part of the day was spent sleeping because when my depression and anxiety is at its worst, that’s all I want to do.